Reaching back and moving forward in a weird start to 2023

It’s been quite an odd month has January. Usually quiet on the work front as people struggle to pick up projects put down for the festive break and the cold weather and dark mornings see a lot of people put their heads down and try to make it through to pay day. Which is, for many people in knowledge worker roles, this week.

Therefore, it has been discombobulating to find myself in demand. What’s even more unsettling is that I chose to take on some work that I would normally refuse – because the client was nice and the business challenge was meaty. Still, saying yes to an advertising project – albeit being run out of a non-advertising agency – was not what I was expecting.

It gets weirder.
I thought I would be the planner/strategist, since that’s the role I fulfil for most clients. And I was. I’ve never written a proper comms brief, so it was a new territory for me to do that. I’m usually producing business or tech strategies; the closest I’ve come is brand strategies, but there’s no brief to write in the same sense there is for a creative team.

I’ve read a lot of comms briefs in my years and, on the whole, I’ve found them functional at best. I tried to make sure mine didn’t do that. I wanted it to inspire a team to come up with some great ads. I tried, and failed, to not write some copy lines as part of it, though. I guess it’s not easy to drop your old role even after a decade or more of not doing it. I cannot lie, I love words and writing.

The big surprise came when I was told I would be one of the creatives working on the next phase. Yep, answering my own brief. I was teamed up with a senior art director (at my own request) with whom I’d never worked before. Thankfully, this was something I am comfortable with after decades of working freelance or being seen as the senior consultant with all the answers. Luckily, I was given a name I knew, someone I thought was perfect for the task.

Reader, I had the best week of work I’ve had for a long time. We clicked as a creative pairing, came up with some brilliant ideas (and some terrible ones) and managed in five days to produce a set of concepts I think are interesting and really push the brief to its limits.

The slides are ready ahead of schedule (the client moved the presentation date, though) and next Monday we get to see if the month can end with smiles on the client’s and the agency’s faces.

The study track
Alongside this, I’ve been pulling together a 4,000 word assignment about my research project, which has seen me learning how to do proper academic research and reading more words about a subject I already know fairly well and trying to work out how to articulate what I’m doing and why it’s worthy of the academic world’s interest.

This hasn’t been easy with the commuting and long days of using my brain to think about how to solve a problem. It has also been made more difficult by having to commute with a small dog. Oh, and my coffee machine broke.

Previous study has been what I would call standard study, albeit at Master level. You read, you answer a question using what you’ve read as foundational ideas/concepts, and you pull out some recommendations and conclusions. It’s usually based on something you’re doing or have done. This is the data, and it’s enough. With a research project there is no data. You’re finding a way to collect it and analyse it – and you have to justify every single decision you make, which is exhausting. You can’t just make shit up, as Ashley T. Rubin states in her excellent book about rigorous qualitative research.

I’ve also got to get all the background admin done: write interview questions, email invitations to people I’d like to speak to, and produce consent forms, confirm I’ve considered the ethics, health and safety, and other risks of the project. There’s a lot to do, lots of threads to hold on to and keep track of.

All of this is fine when it’s the only thing I need to concern myself with, but doing it alongside work has been tough going. I was going to take February off entirely, to get ahead of things before it all gets moving again in March for the next deadline in April. That’s not now going to happen, because January has been so packed out. The work for the comms brief will move to production, and I will need to be involved.

With luck it will all slow down towards the end of February and I can spend my time wisely on study only, plus a tiny bit of looking at art and wandering around London while I think. Weather permitting on that last one.

Right now, I still have an assignment to finish. Best get on with it.

A weird week ahead

It’s been over a decade since I worked in advertising. I miss only a few things about the industry, which is generally the fellow creatives. I don’t miss the deadlines and the hours.

So, it is with trepidation that this week I’m working at an advertising strategist and creative. The brief has been written; Tuesday is the start of the answering that brief. If it’s been signed off.

I’m working with someone I’ve not met before. Which I’m not concerned about. I think it’s a strength, as we will definitely have different backgrounds and perspectives. Different worldviews and trajectories. Gender, too. And age.

Another reason it’s a weird week. I hit a milestone birthday. A proper one. The one that tips you into the decline. And for me, given my current and historical health challenges, means it’s quite possibly the last decade I will see. I don’t write those words lightly.

What’s even weirder is, I am more worried about the week of being an advertising creative than I am about the medium-term challenges.

Changing my reading patterns

I decided to unsubscribe from some long-subscribed-to email newsletters. I reasoned that since I hadn’t read them in quite some time they were no longer truly valuable to me.

Part of my not-reading tactic was that they were delivered to Gmail and therefore searchable. However, most, if not all, of the email newsletters I unsubscribed recently never appeared in search results for things I am interested in now. They were connected to a previous me, one that no longer needs to know if the idea he is creating has been done before, has some sort of legacy to draw upon or is plain stupid. I’m not in the business of ideas now in the same way I was before.

I will need to do the same with books, at some point. I tend to pass on paperbacks, the buy-one-get-one-half-price types from a specific bookseller. However, all my hardbacks and first editions I keep. The signed ones especially. I buy more books than I could possibly read in a year in amongst work and study; however, I realised I was leaving the big hardbacks alone because they looked like they might take me a long time to get through.

That changed recently, too, when I finally plucked up the courage to read a book that’s been sat in my unread book pile for a year. To Paradise by Hanri Yanagihara. In a short time (relative to all the reading I have to do for work and study, you understand) I have almost reached the halfway point. It’s a compelling read. I’m enjoying it, so much so that I am reading for half an hour longer each night than I might normally do. I am more tired as a result, but I am happy to be making progress.

Daytime reading is non-fiction and academic papers. Often, but not always, on a screen. I’m taking notes, critically reading things and identifying where they support, or deny, other authors’ claims. I am also writing my own thoughts based on these critical analyses that I use to build out my research proposal and dissertation.

I enjoy reading. I think it’s the single thing I love most about life. The ability to open up a book and disappear into a new world, or a new idea. Books change you. Mostly in good ways, but not always. Still, the change happens regardless. The patterns shift. Your worldview tilts, blurs, refocuses.

I might read some of those newsletters I ditched recently. One day. After all, at some point they shifted my reading and thinking patterns and they should be allowed the opportunity to do so again. I might even end up resubscribing.

Socially Insta-meh

Back in 2010, I remember downloading Instagram and spending hours on the app, even though most photos I take are awful (in terms of composition and lighting and everything). I was also, at the time, a heavy user of Twitter.

Neither of those apps have remained. I found Instagram a bit spammy and ultimately a way for people to show off. My life is too boring nowadays to warrant posting pics. So I archived everything and moved off. Twitter has imploded, mostly down to its new owner’s weirdness that I don’t want to go into. He’s not worth the radio airtime. In that, we share a commonality, but let’s not get into that, either.

The move from being a creative to being a strategist has, arguably, made me less social media shouty. Strategy decks are not visually appealing (compared to art directed ads) and I spend 99.9% of my time at home surrounded by cats. Yeah, dull.

When I picked up Mastodon, I thought I would probably not bother to use it. That has mostly been the case, with the occasionally flurry of replies to someone else. I delete posts after 7 days, so I quite enjoy the ephemeral nature of the experience that I’ve introduced to it. It’ll save deleting a huge amount of posts when the inevitable happens and I get bored, die, or the platform fails to live up to other people’s expectations. Not sure which one of those will be first.

The ebb and flow of platforms and apps and so forth is interesting. What makes something stick around, like a framework (2/2 grids, for example) or other social technologies (standing on the right on a London Underground escalator) for long periods of time? Is it that there are no better alternatives (other grid sizes, lifts for those who can’t walk up stairs), or another reason?

Is there an Instagram version of a long-standing social technology that’s become obsolete (or only used by a niche group)? I’m sure there are plenty. I don’t mean social norms, like wearing a bowler hat to work in the City of London’s banks and insurance companies, or even writing Dear [name] to begin a letter. I mean the things that create connections between people and other people, people and things, and things and things that enable people to ‘do’ things.

Perhaps there are examples. I’ll keep thinking.

How to disappear completely

I am here. I am real. I feel.

What do I feel? Grief for the year passed. A sense of trepidation at the future. A series of synaptic snapshots of life without my presence. A view of myself old and gnarly and advanced in years. A multitude of possibilities.

Yet, if I don’t put thumb to screen, post something – text or image – do I exist? In a modern sense. If I were to remove myself from this collective human self, where would I be?

It’s so tempting to want to find out.

1 January 2023

Here we go, another year and another attempt to make sense of the world.

Well, that remains to be seen, I suppose.

I often start the year with intentions (good and bad), and fall into the trap of trying to be positive and look forward to amazing things happening.

This year does feel more like the end than the beginning, though. A year to give up on things. A pruning of sorts. Deleting, unsubscribing, throwing out (or passing on), unfollowing, discarding and leaving to rot.

Without wishing to be too morose, there is a metaphor for my mental and physical states in there.

Enough said. Happy new year.